I’m sure you are all thinking, why in the world does this crazy woman have a Lowe’s bag in her drivers seat? And what does it have to do with low points.
Well in my defense it was buying toilet bowl parts that sent me over the edge! My toilet bowl has been running and it drove me nuts. In my frustration I decided that I am going to make an attempt to change out the fill valve. To turn it into even more of a nightmare, I am the fool that decided I’ll do it myself.
Sadly I have a man I’ve been dating for 5 years. In my menopausal emotional state (that’s another post) I was in my emotional feelings instead of just simply asking for help.
I drove to Lowe’s to pick of my order because Lord knows that if it isn’t right in front of me, I will never find it. Plus it smells like a man store and I’m just not interested unless I am buying plants of flowers.
That’s what sent me over the edge! I saw a beautiful lady grabbing a flower cart, looking so serene like she never had to plunge a toilet, waltzing over to buy plants. I just about came unglued. It wasn’t her that I was upset with. I allowed my sadness and thoughts get a hold of me.
I started with the pity party of an exhausted mother who wants to so desperately be married to the man that I ADORE, and thinking suddenly something must be wrong with me that he won’t marry me, then the list of my imperfections started to ring in my ears. All while I was picking up an order.
Life is hard. Reality didn’t even strike me until I sat down to blog about how horrible I felt yesterday. It’s also a reminder of how quick our emotions can set us off into a mess of negative thoughts if we aren’t careful. I had to remind myself…
God is our refuge. It’s so important that we continue to trust in him. It’s ok to have basket case days just like I did. Just make sure that you stop and take captive of any negative thoughts that don’t line up with who God says that you are.
It wasn’t about to toilet problem. It was about me not focusing on who God says that I am. The lesson I learned is, This is an area I still desperately need to grow in.
Happily Ever Amber 